My new crush: Ruthie Foster

 I just heard about her today. . . she's playing a concert nearby. She's a blues/gospel/kinda folkey artist. Went to school in my hometown. She did date a woman. I think she was married to a man. She's a lot older than I, but she still caught my eye. You know what catches my eye: a great smile. Look at that great, genuine smile of hers. She's happy. She's talented. She's passionate. She's successful. She's cute. . . feminine and masculin at same time. O yeah.

Dissociation and Disengagement

My favorite painting from the local cultural museum.

Amnesiotic. . . No, not I.

Where is my psyche?

Pop, boom, bam. . . Scram!

It's all disrupted.

Ruptured and torn
and twisting inside.

Trauma and stress,
no substances has he.

Depersonalization,

it's not a vertigo shot
nor the dolly zoom.

The broken images of light

dance before my eyes.

Weakness in the mentalitiy

not the functionality.

Now what is your capacity?

Contain it, don't spew it.

Words didn't flow out of your mouth 

like they were flowing to a paper cup.

They were endless

and they smacked right into the wall.

You hit that wall.

Glazing over. Tuning it out.

Wrinkles form across my forehead.

I'm in another place.

Where am I?

Where is my reality?

Sit and frown,

now here comes the depersonalization.

Where has our self awareness gone?

You're a lady and I'm supposed to be a man.

You think you suffer

and lack significance?

Bi, bi-polar, bi-sexual,

bi-assed, bi-cycle, bye bye.

The inappropriateness of the pledge.

Dis, it has all been undone.

Jai guru deva, om.
Something is gonna change my world.

Don't Forget It

This is my new ring. A replacement. I like it. It makes me remember. I won't forget.

Girls with chort hair. . . (long list)

I worry this is what I'll look like with short hair. I don't wanna. I have baby fine hair. However, when my hair was short before, it was poofier than this.

All of these girl pull off their short hair nicely. Take a look below:

I like this girl. Got a longboard and dogs.

She's one hot chick.

Look at my little Michelle. What a great actress. How cute is she? How awesome does her hair look? She looks miles long in this photo.

Nice.

Cute curls

A haha. She looks like my ex's ex. But I like this pic. She looks tough and nice at the same time.

Alien-spread-apart-eyes, but nice hair.

Molly

Oh that girl next door.

Very pretty.

We all love Shannyn.

Pretty. Like the red lips with contrasting blue eyes and dark hair.

Lulu's: cute clothes

http://www.lulus.com/products/ots-and-evens-lace-red-top/40395.html

http://www.lulus.com/products/hinterlands-bright-green-crop-top/40393.html

http://www.lulus.com/products/earth-rebel-vegan-leather-brown-bomber-jacket/40211.html

Makes me sad

Elie Saab. . . so ethereal

Wow, these gowns from Elie Saab's Fall collection are gorgeous. . . what all the starlets should be wearing on the red carpets. Flowy, glimmery, impeccable and airy.