I'm blessed

Today I got to thinking about how I had a nice childhood. We always went on little excursions, outings and vacations. My mother doesn't fly on planes, so we would drive everywhere. I wasn't the luckiest of the lucky who got to experience life overseas, but I had fun going the places we went.

Port Royal in Port Aransas

Vegas; Bally's and Paris

Disney World

Red River

An A-frame in Ruidoso

We would go to the same places. . . Red River, Ruidoso, Port Aransas, Disney World. . . then when we got older we would go to Vegas regularly. We'd go shopping in Austin and Dallas and stay overnight at Salado and play in the creek.
I was thinking about some people around me and how I don't think they are able to go on vacations. I felt sorry for them and their children. They work too much or don't have the funds.
I came away feeling extremely BLESSED today.

The Broadmoor in Colorado Springs

I suppose I thought about traveling because I just got back from flying to Midland for a long weekend last week. I'm going to fly to Colorado next weekend. And, I've been asked if I'd like to live in Mexico for a year. Hell Yes! But, I need about $20,000 for that, so I don't think that is going to happen. Boo!

Images from Teen Vogue

 These pants are awesome. I love the studded knee patch area.

And ew. . . I think this look is just awful. Poor girl. I love colorful clothes and I'm kindof attracted to a masculine dressed female, but this ain't rockin.

Making a Luffa

Look what's inside these gourds when you peel back the dried skin. . . a luffa. Or loofah, as I like to say. You dry these out, when you shake them they will sound like a rattle. . . and then they are ready to peel and be cut into loofahs. Pretty Cool.

Today I wore. . .

I mixed prints. Floral (dress) with zebra (flats)

I braided both sides of my hair and put into a ballerina ball.

Today's outfit

I brought this dress out of the bottom of a moving box I haven't unpacked in a year. I wore my pink booties to keep my feet clean from the wet weather. 
I'm making an effort to wear things other than my weekly favorites I wear all the time.

Notice I'm wearing Pink and Gray. I will make a blog about how much I love pink and gray together soon.

I'm also working on accessorizing more or putting more color in my makeup. My sister asked me if I even wear makeup. . . and when I told her yes. . . she said I need more blush and color to my lips. I've been wearing red lips the past two days. I'm also starting to play with my hair a bit more, rather than wearing it in the same pony tail every day. It's still mostly back, but I'll put some clips or some braids throughout.

My vintage dress- 50's housewife am I?

Yesterday, I decided to wear one of my vintage dresses to work. Lots of people complimented me. My boss called me June Cleaver. I was just praying no one would tell me to gather Scarecrow and Tin Man and follow the yellow brick road.

Love this Laundry product

Until Now. . . I have never wanted to cuddle with my fresh-out-of-the-dryer laundry. Now I do. You should try this. It makes laundry smell and feel great!

My $4 table refinished

I bought this mid-century looking table for $4 at goodwill. It was painted black and the paint chipped off all the time. I finally got around to refinishing it. Considering it had some chips in the wood and I mainly worked at night on my porch. . . I'm happy with the end product.

In the middle of sanding it.

Got on my dykey work gear.

I chose a stain called Kona. It is very dark brown. And it reminded me of Kona, Hawaii.

See the part I filled with wood filler? I can't figure out how to get wood filler to blend in very well.

Hodessa

I took a nice little visit to Midland to visit my sister, her husband and her three-year-old twins. I do NOT recommend going to the Odessa Mall. The only two name brands stores there are Dillards and Express. Everything else is a knock off store with names like M-Lo (like J-Lo I suppose) with hoochie-mama clothes.  Just look at this manikin's pose! Yeesh!
The entire mall is carpeted. What well traveled floor is carpeted? But, there is a merry-go-round and a play area for kids.
I know why friends have told me it is called "Ho-dessa."

Newest Edition to mi familia

Meet Mr. Dusty. I rescued him from the watermelon shed the next town over. He was dusty when I found him, plus he's gray, and my grandfather's nickname was Dusty. Therefore, with all three wrapped in one. . . I think Dusty is a perfect name.

Pardon the litter between his toes.

Precious 'lil model

 This is the first time I've ever seen this model. I think she's both cute and sexy in her pictures. She wears the clothes well. She's got a defined nose and such long, lean legs.

My new crush: Ruthie Foster

 I just heard about her today. . . she's playing a concert nearby. She's a blues/gospel/kinda folkey artist. Went to school in my hometown. She did date a woman. I think she was married to a man. She's a lot older than I, but she still caught my eye. You know what catches my eye: a great smile. Look at that great, genuine smile of hers. She's happy. She's talented. She's passionate. She's successful. She's cute. . . feminine and masculin at same time. O yeah.

Dissociation and Disengagement

My favorite painting from the local cultural museum.

Amnesiotic. . . No, not I.

Where is my psyche?

Pop, boom, bam. . . Scram!

It's all disrupted.

Ruptured and torn
and twisting inside.

Trauma and stress,
no substances has he.

Depersonalization,

it's not a vertigo shot
nor the dolly zoom.

The broken images of light

dance before my eyes.

Weakness in the mentalitiy

not the functionality.

Now what is your capacity?

Contain it, don't spew it.

Words didn't flow out of your mouth 

like they were flowing to a paper cup.

They were endless

and they smacked right into the wall.

You hit that wall.

Glazing over. Tuning it out.

Wrinkles form across my forehead.

I'm in another place.

Where am I?

Where is my reality?

Sit and frown,

now here comes the depersonalization.

Where has our self awareness gone?

You're a lady and I'm supposed to be a man.

You think you suffer

and lack significance?

Bi, bi-polar, bi-sexual,

bi-assed, bi-cycle, bye bye.

The inappropriateness of the pledge.

Dis, it has all been undone.

Jai guru deva, om.
Something is gonna change my world.

Don't Forget It

This is my new ring. A replacement. I like it. It makes me remember. I won't forget.